Well, I got a bit done today in regards of catching up.

I paid some bills and deferred some.

I rearranged some meetings, and booked a few others.

I went for a 2.5 mile run - and man do I feel great. I crossed alot more ground than I had realised.

And while I was out running, had a few revelations:

• Deciding to go for a run at 3:00PM is not a good idea - too many prams to try and dodge
• Getting caught up in your exercise can be a good thing - cleared a full mile before I realised
• Even when you’re covered in sweat and getting your exercise on, men will still try to chat you up
• Having headphones that dont go REAL LOUD sucks - I like my music LOUD
• System of A Down is great music to run to if you’re in the mood
• Lilly Allen isn’t
• Running can really clear your head
• It can also get rid of cramps
• My lungs need more exercise - I need to do this daily for at least the next week to build up stamina - and lay off the curry for awhile

I have also done some soul searching and have decided that I will no longer be controlled by fear.

The ex cannot hurt me any more, and I refuse to give him that power.

I will continue to have the police alarm in the house, but I no longer feel like a prisoner - I feel free.

I am free.

Free from your anger.

Free from your hatred.

I am free from your need to make me feel inadequate because of your needs/wants/desires/fetishes that always came first.

Free from your need to punish and control.

Most of all, I am free to love and to be loved again, in a way I never thought possible.
And you can’t take that away from me.